i want to put down my guitar...

...and sing a song with my heart.

i went to the rodeo show today and it was tight. way too hot and too expensive, but awesome none the less. ITFOW was crazy and fun, Darkroom was great, Alexander was a pleasant surprise, and Rodeo was incredible. absolutely incredible. it was a good night.

this is my last night of work. oh yeah. party.

blarg

practice was good today. we have some awesome new parts. tyler writes some of the most difficult stuff i've ever heard. he has to practice it for weeks before he can even play it well. cabby's new drum set has given him new energy and the song sound better than ever. we're getting pretty good.

i leave for chicago in less than 3 days. heck yes. and i only have 2 days of work left. i'm stoked about that. i need to get paid though. i'm running out of money.... and the school year hasn't even started yet!! this is bad... haha.

lookin' toward the future...

...we were beggin' for the past.


practice today and then only 2 more nights of work and then i leave on Thursday for Lollapalooza with Colombia!! woohoo!! i'm so stoked.

contadictions

it's funny how i talked about my messed up history yesterday and today i revisited some of it that i probably shouldn't have revisited. i didn't do anything i will ever regret, but i definitely brought the temptation upon myself. i'm glad i didn't act on any of my feelings though. high five for me.

practice tomorrow. i'm so pumped i want to play music so badly. and i want to write new stuff but i've been having music-writer's block lately. i hope it lifts soon.

"Hold on to what you need...

We have a knack for fucked-up history."

so true. i was thinking today about how messed up my past is and it is quite something to think about. some of it i'd rather not remember but oh well... everyone has those times i guess. all i know for certain right now is that I like Colombia and i love Modest Mouse.

new drums

i just bought a new drum set today. it's a Gretsch Blackhawk with 10", 12", and 14" toms. totally rad. it's going to be used as the band drum set which is crazy because it's better than mine at home!! haha. oh well. it was worth it and i guess it's a great 20th birthday present for Cabby!

what what

i'm trying to stay awake until my paper route. bleh. another hour and a half to go.

i went to Keith's party last night. it was a good time. Nate called me at one point and we talked for 20 minutes about his crazy life. i feel sorry for him. i'm glad i'm not caught up in that much drama. no one should have to go through that stuff.
i might be hanging out with Annie and Colombia today. that would be tight. and then Saturday Colombia and i are going shopping for snacks and such for our Chicago trip. i'm pumped.
practice wasn't bad. we wrote some new stuff that was pretty stellar. i think we have some potential for future goodness. i really need to work on writing new lyrics. i've been slacking lately.

danger! (is not s'posed to be this quiet)

i put my ear to the track waiting for the train
then stand silently and wait for momentary pain
i prick my finger and watch it bleed
the scarlet bath waters the mustard seed

for whom the bell tolls

wow... today was incredible hanging out with Colombia. she's tons of fun. i'm only half looking forward to tomorrow. we have band practice but i'm afraid it's going to be all drama. lucas is going to be mad at everyone over the new song. he seems to hate the new stuff we're doing. i thought this band was going to last one more year... maybe not.

to no one

i write to no one. i know this very well. no one will read this because i haven't told anyone about it. i like it that way. i can write whatever i want.

i think The Quality Object is incredible right now. the best it's ever been and getting better by the practice. Zach, Tyler and I all feel the same but Lucas isn't happy. i don't know what to do about it because he wants to be something so much different. every weeks his ideas change and we can't change the band just to keep up with his mindset. i don't know what to do about it...

on a lighter not i'm going to Indy today. i'm going with Colombia so it should be a grand time. we'll go visit her school, Butler, and then we're going to hit up the zoo i believe. i have my paper route in an hour so i think i'm going to try and get some rest. i will end up with one 4 hours of sleep tonight no matter what... how crummy.

blog #1

this is blog #1. i play whiffle tennis home run derby every night at midnight.